Love and such

I've been quite hesitant to post too personally here.  You open yourself up to a whole host of criticisms when you do so.  But after turning 30, I sort of have an "I don't give a fuck" mentality.  If you don't like what I have to say, too bad, I am confident enough in myself to not care what you think.

I am in the midst of the best love story that any writer could ever dream up.  I won't delve into the past--you know it, I know it, it's done.  I have truly found the one whom my soul adores.  Looking back, I can't believe I settled for less, but I guess you don't know what you're missing if you don't have it.

As a writer, I find it impossible to put into words my feelings for this man.  It's bigger than anything I've ever known, it's beautiful and frightening, it's absolutely tying my tongue into knots-it's everything and nothing all at the same time.  There is no one word to describe everything that I feel.  But he knows.  Because his feelings mirror my own, and if you are truly with the one you should be with, you know it as well.

This life we lead together is amazing.  I've never laughed so much in my life.  From the moment we wake there is smiling, laughter, goofiness, and this extreme affection for each other.  Never have I gave so selflessly to another without wanting a single thing in return.  Who knew I would be perfectly happy to make his lunches, fold his laundry, and cook his dinners?  And yet, it's so much more than that.

Even apart, we are very  much together.  As two extremely independent people we live our separate lives, but there is so much togetherness in the separation.  I can't speak for him, but apart I cannot wait until I am in his arms again.  I think I would be perfectly content to never see another person again but him.

There is such a perfect synchronicity in our whole love story.  The timing was just so that if I had turned a second too fast or too late this never would have come to fruition.  These people that we are have helped write the pages of this novel.  Had I not suffered and overcame there would be no us.  Had he not longed and looked there would be no us.

If there is such a thing as perfection, this is it.  To be so in sync with another is divine.  He is my soul.  He is my heart.  I was put on this earth to find him.  Just as Eve was made of Adam's rib, I was made of his.  I believe every person on this earth was created with another person.  God puts them on opposite ends of the Earth, and if they are truly blessed they will once again find each other.  We are blessed.  We cherish everyday together and nothing is taken for granted.  We continually show our appreciation for each other.

Who knows where this road we travel will go, but if we go together, everything will be fine.