Ahh 2012!

As I rang in 2012 with a slight buzz and a passionate kiss with my boyfriend, I wondered what 2012 would bring me. 2011 certainly surprised the hell out of me and I am hoping for only good surprises this year.

I do not understand New Year's resolutions. I used to make them, but like most of the population, my resolution had long been forgotten by February 1. So I spent my January 2nd in a funk. My last day off of work (boo!) and I just couldn't pull it together. I felt like I was already failing 2012. I was down, tired, and completely uncertain as to why I wasn't feeling hopeful about the new year.

So to make myself feel better I had to list things I was grateful for, that made me happy. That made me at least get in the shower!

Then I realized 2012 is the year I turn 30, so that made me get back into bed and watch a crappy movie, that I ended up turning off 5 minutes before it was over!

In resolving to not set a resolution, I have decided that I want to add a few more accomplishments to my "before I turn 30" list.

I had to think really long and hard about what I would like to accomplish in the next 4 months. I already have so much I am proud of - owning my first home by age 22, owning my second home by 28, moving 800 miles away from home by myself, living alone, teaching myself how to do a lot of "guy things".

So what is it that I want to attain before turning 30 since I already have done so much? I Googled lists, thought of things I wanted, but none of it seemed enough. Turning 30 is a big deal to me, it's scary and I want to turn that around. So I have decided I want to learn to just be more grateful. I want to be grateful for what I have. I want to be grateful for people. And I want to remember to be grateful for those things on a daily basis. In the mire of everyday crap I often lose sight of how much I have to be grateful for! And I am going to make it public!

For today I am grateful that I have a job! With so many unemployed and struggling, I am so grateful to have a job. Even though I complained when my alarm went off at 6am after almost a two week vacation!