Saturday, September 22, 2012

Insomnia...

I've never been a good sleeper.  A true night owl, I stay up till the wee hours of the morning turning the pages of a great novel, these days its more like flipping the "page" on my Kindle, but I digress.  Since I can remember I just wasn't one of those people who laid down and fell asleep.  I would count sheep, then ducks, then cats and soon I had a farm.  My mind would run off to unknown places and the next thing I know I am up writing lists,   searching recipes, or whatever else I was thinking of.  I had a brief affair with Lunesta, but sleeping pills affected me in weird ways.  I have just come to terms with the fact that I am a bad sleeper, but have turned into one hell of a napper.

It's a good time as any to write a blog post and seeing as how I am on month 2 of unemployment it's time to update everyone on this long and seemingly endless search for a job.  After 2 months I've had one interview and countless "no's".  It is very frustrating, but what can a girl do but keep on moving forward even if it feels like I am on a challenge in Survivor going through mud.  I find myself with another interview coming Monday and I am hopeful, but always cautious to not get too hopeful lest I receive another rejection.  But I know something is around the corner and I just keep the faith since that's all I can really do.

After 2 months of unemployment I am finding the only part I like of it is sleeping in (going back to the bad sleeper thing).  No matter how hard I try, my cats do not talk back! And I think they are getting annoyed with me talking to them.  The house is cleaner than it's ever been and I have read like a mad woman.  I have picked up the guitar again and am learning a lot and making good progress.  I even started playing flute again.  Something I always loved and put down for many years.  But in all that, I need a job.  I want something to make me feel like I am contributing to society and to my bank account.  I want to sit in an office and do work (I know weird, right?).

Until then, I remain your wide-awake, every hopeful, job seeker.

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